A horrible dream – but maybe a good input for reality

I had a very very bad dream last night. I tried to kill Dante – my own dog. I somehow understood from somewhere that he should be killed so I was trying. At the same time I was very soft so he survived. My means were for example  – exposing him for a moving bike (!!!) After some time I got tired, dante was a bit hurt but otherwise OK, just laying around, very calm, doing nothing. I was looking at him and I understood that he does not need to be killed and that I do not need to get rid of him. The other way around. I actually wanted to keep him. I wanted to have him. Then I woke up. Went to hug Dante, was thankful for just seeing him. This dream influenced my day. It was all the time somewhere deep in my thoughts. I was thinking why would I dream such a horrible thing. I love that little creature and my heart is breaking each time I have to leave him (when going somewhere for more than a day and he can not come with me). Why really?

Maybe there is something else in my life I really love but I am also trying to get rid of it. I will definitely reconsider my choices.

Looking back – being thankful!

Switzerland – Germany – Göteborg. Those are the places where I have been these weeks. Everything went so fast that I did not have time to reflect or “digest” all the experience and impressions. Now I am sitting at UNF Congress, following the discussions and having lots of time for thinking.

IOGT Switzerland was an experience.  Sleeping on a farm, in straw but being at the Congress in a nice fancy place. Nice combination. My Switzerland experience is actually full of combinations – young and old together, local and international focus, serious discussions and fun. I was happy to see this organisation a bit closer. To understand it a bit better.

Germany was a nice holiday. Very short. Lots of kilometers spent in a car. But still energizing. Doing something what I do not do so often – watching a graduation party. Walking a bit around Berlin and Munster. Realizing that I understand more German than I thought. And almost no responsibilities.

And now UNF Congress. More than 100 delegates gathered for 5 days to discuss and plan and devote their time (it´s summer holiday here) and energy into making the world better. Congress sessions start at 9.00 food breaks are pretty short, now it´s 20.00 and the debates are still going on. People here gather during breaks to read through the papers, discuss them, prepare for the comming sessions. I like this culture. It makes me happy to see it! So eventhough I have not really a lot to do , I really enjoy following the whole process. It will give me strength for the days when I will sit in the office and feel very alone in what I do. I will try to remember that I am not. 

 I am very thankful for being able to see this!